Kerli - Personal Life

Personal Life

At the age of 15, Kerli asked her mother for a tattoo that states "music" in Chinese ("音乐"). Dubious, her mother told her that if she read "every book ... in town" on China and did a report on it, she would allow her to get the tattoo. Kerli did as requested and her mother took her to get the tattoo the day before her 16th birthday. She has two tattoos on her forearm: one of a butterfly which symbolizes "living everyday like it was last" and that she would never "leave a person that without them knowing how much them" and the other tattoo states in Latin "Amicus Humani Generis" which Kerli translates "a friend of the human race." On her left forearm, again Latin, reads "Agnus Dei". On her right foot, she has the letter "E", an initial of someone who "broke her heart."

While not belonging to any religion, nor labeling herself as such, Kerli believes in reincarnation as well as other forms of life after death, fairies (which she has cited as a large element of her life), angels and demons, although once defining them as "reflections" of one's "inner light" and "inner darkness" respectively. However, besides thanking her guardian angels in the liner notes for Love Is Dead, she has also stated she feel angels are beings, as well as using "angel cards."

She has said that she has bipolar disorder and attempted suicide when she was 17 as a result of her troubled upbringing, stating now that her upbringing has "made stronger and now can be here for other kids who are like " and that she's happy to be alive, describing life as a "beautiful and rare gift". During a live video chat with fans on October 7, 2011, Kerli recalled when she was 17 and would ask her local doctor to sedate her with medication because it "hurt so much to be awake" due to her depression. She also recalled an instance when she was home alone when she was 17 where she covered the windows with dark towels to block out the sunlight and began cutting herself and slitting her arms with rusty scissors stating that she "wanted to die" and "couldn't feel any physical pain at all because was just hurting so much inside".

She currently lives in Los Angeles, California.