Nanda (Buddhist Nun) - Renunciation

Renunciation

It soon became obvious that Nanda was not fully focused on her life as a nun. Nanda's thoughts were mainly directed centred around her own beauty and her popularity with the people, characteristics which were the karma of meritorious actions in past lives. These karmic traits became impediments to Nanda, since she neglected to reinforce them with new actions. She felt guilty that she was not fulfilling the lofty expectations that others had of her, and that she was far from the objective for which so many of the Sakyan royal family had renounced their worldly life. She was certain that the Buddha would censure her, so she evaded him for a long time.