Indigo Muldoon - Spirituality

Spirituality

In the context of the novels, the Spirit World has distinct rules and levels of organization. Indigo has contempt for God because of her spiritual status, which is radically different from that of most other humans. God will give her almost anything she asks for except death. Indigo survived several fatal incidents, including a plane crash in which she was the only survivor. After having lived so much in her 15 years, Indie is ready to die and wants rest from the chaos of her life, but she is not allowed to die because she must live until she has served her purpose. Out of despair and confusion she committed suicide, but was brought to a hospital by her friend Kelly. While she was unconscious, Indie traveled the Spirit World and was informed by Gabriella, God's Messenger Angel, that she will go to Hell when she finally does die if she does not repent for her suicide. On the same night, Indie's childhood friend, Lipong, overdoses on Vitamin A. He and Indigo lie next to each other in the crash room as he dies and she comes back to life. As Lipong takes his last breath, Indie hears him apologize. She thinks he is apologizing to her, but when he comes to her as an Angel, she realizes he had repented.

The state of Indie's virginity is important to her spiritual tasks. Her virginity takes the form of a glass swan that she must protect from "damage." The day Indie loses her virginity, the swan will shatter into pieces. The noise it makes will summon the Angels to watch either Indigo's sin, or her rape.

Indie has indulged her depression through anorexia, smoking, drinking, and abusing painkillers. She often "flirts with Death" by engaging in dangerous behavior, knowing she cannot die.